Have a Purpose

I do not want to go down that road again
Fall is nearing end, and winter steers ahead
The taste so rich, a vineyard, a costly friend
Steep trend to what end, a bloody wedding I'm sure to attend
I do not want to go down that road again
Down on one knee I beg, against my will you're in my bed
A life not blessed by Him, turn my back on the artist's hand?
Spin me until my colors run, to see my life that is soon to come
Such abstract bewilderness, only He can paint me to a vast wilderness
So go to it, and live by faith!

Should I

You have devoted your life to me, it's crazy
But all I want to do is push away, from it, I don't, it's hazy
Here I am, picked it up again, trying to make it through
But inside I know it's addiction to pain, my sorrow shows it's vines
I know I can't go on this way, would you hear me out, or turn and run out?
It's times like these that the tears turn to sand, and my heart bleeds in my hand
It doesn't make sense to me, why you've stayed, I make mistakes, this is how you get repaid?
Don't cry again, no I can't bare it, I don't want you to share in it, I never wanted it to be this way
I guess I never should have gone this way, where do I go now!

Have I told you lately that you are beautiful?
So beautiful

What about now, after reading this do you hate me now
All you have done for me was love and surrender to me
Forgave my twisted past, understood my unraisable speed was too fast
But hearing me cry, like a baby full of doubt, pain turned into murder
A jail cell never cold enough to put me down to sleep, so sleepless nights are ever promising
But not even yet have I reached bottom, I can go more, deeper until I can see no more
Until I'm alone, is this what I have in store for me?
Man it's like the ground is 6 feet thick, and I'm buried underneath
Underneath cold enough to stop time, rewind think about what I've done to you!

Have I told you lately that you are beautiful?
So beautiful
I am so lost, and running out of time
Would you understand?
Could you be happier then, or would you fall out of place
Should I

I am so lost, and running out of time
Would you understand?
Could you be happier then, or would you fall out of grace
Should I, should I leave you now

Today I pick up my cross, sick to death of hearing voices tell me I don't care
Running around without a care without a cause purpose, wont listen anymore
Just give up, it dies now, whether or not I live to see them slumped over with love lost
Not my concern, left alone to rot in your own words, it's what you deserve

All I want is to love you, give you everything this world takes away
Love, respect honor, you define these, and I want you to have these
I love more than anything, and I want you to too
It's all I ask

Have I told you lately that you are beautiful?
So beautiful
I am so lost, and running out of time
Would you understand?
Could you be happier then, or would you fall out of place
Should I

Came To Me

When I tell you about us child, about the years about to come
The era of living hope, and the shoes we wear upon our feet
The type of clothing we meant to keep neat, the funny faces that we meet, come to me

She is so beautiful, a breathing, living waterfall, I tell you she is too good for me
Although she stayed by me, her arms interlocked around me, around me
I get goosebumps when I hear our song, it's what I wanted all along
She arrives to church dressed in purple, and I pray her beauty won't strike me down when I gaze upon her crown
It took some time, but she became mine and I'll never let her go

Our dance made the angels weep, sing of peace
She loves me, warms me like a winter fleece
Don't be so shy, and never wonder why, I'll show you
Believe me when I tell you love grows greater with age, think of this wine
It's sweet aroma fills your soul, lifts and shine, lifts and shine

Projected pictures fly by, on screen decades in a flash
So much time has pasted, but love never selfish, never in a mad dash
Love like us, us... such a beautiful honor to hold
Sitting on this wooden pew, in this old brick church,
Promise you will sing honestly, let love lead your search

Now my love, lets dance and make it last, relive the first time you had me in a trance
Let me tell you everything you mean to me, give you what you need oh bring you to me

To Mom (Let Me Say)

I know it feels like you need to tuck tail and run
To get away from everything under the sun
And would it hurt if you never took a breath
Do you wonder who would miss you even in death
Let me say
I know you fear the walls on either side
What have you done to deserve this roller coaster ride
And would it help to close your eyes to shade the drop
Open back up and see you are back on the top, then again...
Do you need to be some place but just can't get there
Disappear let it sink in that they just don't care
Let me say
I want you here for now and for ever more
No one, no one can ever give me more
I hope you know who you are
There are many, but you are my brightest star
Give it a moment and you will see
How much you mean to me

No More No Less

Funny how the deep end has no end
Get fitted the deeper I fall, open your eyes get away from it all
Who among us has the same face to which he was born
Clean sure, but another reborn, someone to fill in the spaces
Who runs fixed races soon to be alone... Looking to fill the tank to move again
Only to hit home, he is no less than me, share the role, move just to fill the hole.

No more no less
I only can do my best, my best
No home no rest
I only can search for rescue, for rescue
With my chest down, I face my tears
Redraw the shadows that covered just like you, the sun is here
No more no less, today I'll do my best

A simple smile can travel faster than a complex poem
Free to give free to understand and hold, and I don't even know him
But he means more to me, cause his light is now a tint brighter, let them see
A name is given a soul is crafted by His hands
Give just a name be forgotten, give your hand bring a restless mind to a standstill not forgotten
I can find a place here

No more no less
I only can do my best, my best
No home no rest
I only can search for rescue, for rescue
With my chest down, I face my tears
Redraw the shadows that covered just like you, the sun is here
No more no less, today I'll do my best

A beautiful melody is not achieved by one string
An encore is given by many who dream in tune
Make sense of it all, one mind given to all
Oh keep it playing, oh... keep on living, breakthrough it all

No more no less
I only can do my best, my best
No home no rest
I only can search for rescue, for rescue
With my chest down, I face my tears
Redraw the shadows that covered just like you, the sun is here
No more no less, today I'll do my best

Lost but Found

Blood illuminates shows me where to cut the vein
Snow man melts but endures no pain
Take a stand? Show me then what it means to be free
Show men perform for a fee, watch what they sell so carefully
Stealing life mentally
Your seductive class remains beneath me
Hang man's last words bounce off the walls
The moment of perfect insight was about to pass through us all
But listened with our pride, didn't hear his cry, too ashamed to admit why
Local men turned their back, covered their face, burned the songs of our grace
Killed off the livestock, fed it to the wolfs, with no sympathy cast out in the cold without wool
Ashamed
So, I'll just move right along
Made me, but with no sight
With a mind so intertwined
Made me, but cast you out
Come on cast it out
Come on, lost but found

Rise Up

My hands shake my mind is strong, but it's about to break
So much like a mirror, a reflection of the struggle that I endure
A reflection
So here I am
My hands shake my heart is strong, but it's about to break
So much like a mirror, a reflection of the struggle that I endure
A reflection
So here I am, a brand new me or a recreation of the man I used to be
Do I drop tears and do the oceans rise? I'm alive to peer and surrender to the wise.
So here I am

Ain't Mad At You

So I know it's depressin, but these thoughts on my mind are pressin, heavy like a half ton brick
Mom, it was never your fault, don't even begin to think, that anything you did brought me to the brink, now my life is like a lit cigarette, up in smoke, loved it and now it's gone, when did I lose it, about 16 years old I lost it, through it into a chest and smashed it, a chest with a lock can't reopen, can't change the past, can't take back my last, life moves too fast, step back should be a blast, but the only blast I hear is, no I won't say it, it won't happen, I'll keep on mappin the next hole I'll step in, I won't end it like cowards, who knows maybe there's a reason I draw conclusions backwards, upside down, these pills won't stay down

I ain't mad at you

Have I changed to you, I think I have, I snap at a whim, I keep my head down and can no longer swim, this isn't me, I'd tell you, I wish I could, but the words I say don't come out like they should, but hey give me a minute I need to step outside, need a second to step aside, clear my head, get fresh air, get up off this bed

I ain't mad at you
I ain't mad at you
Too many years I thought about you, but didn't move, but didn't move
Too many years, but I could not get through, through to you, but I ain't mad at you

Dad it wasn't you neither, whether you know it or not, I love you, that ain't a lie, I really do, life was never a promise, but this I can, my heart is there, locked away or up in the air, a place is there, so pull up a chair and understand I care

I ain't mad at you

If anyone will ever see the real me, maybe not in person, maybe through these words it'll give reason, but if I leave earth, space has no place for a man with no face to place his head on, but the world feeds on what goes on, so get up and move on!

I ain't mad at you
I ain't mad at you
Too many years I thought about you, but didn't move, but didn't move
Too many years, but I could not get through, through to you, but I ain't mad at you

Chances

I thought about it again, should I care how much I win with it
Never once did it help me get me through it
But I try and try again, who ever thought I'd be alive to rewrite with such pain within these prison walls that I live in
Was it my fault, I guess it was, but it wasn't, so step off your pedestal
I could do much more for this world with this pad 'n pencil, then you could ever do with a pistol
Now listen, I care for you but you won't hear me through, I try to break you, but the words
that I say don't faze you
But I look to God for an answer, but underground it's muffled, to the day that I die I'll be baffled
To the people that care, I'll be there, whether or not I'll play it fair
Count the hairs on my head times blood shed hearts broken that I tried to prepare to repair
Now I need a moment to stare, the stars are showing my despair, bright ain't it
For everyone to see, I'm fading from this disease, I need a moment to pray

I just need, yeah a moment to myself
Gaze up to the heavens, yeah and show my strength
Stars count in billions, oh the chances that I have to gain in worth
I just need, yeah a moment to myself
Chances... I need chances, I got 'em
I need chances, yeah, I got 'em

So if you didn't listen, I'll repeat it again
You can't mark me, you're a sinner, I'm a sinner we'll do it again
But hey, why do we repeat what brought us here
I don't know, but it's easier to run than face our fear
Fear of losing you over my spinning head, I just can't get ahead
Back and forth I whirl to and fro all over the world
So as I get this on paper, I hope you understand
I ain't trying to hurt ya, it's just the way I am
Operate so upset, yeah in days I haven't ate, I'll separate, myself from you
I don't understand why, but that's what I do, just can't get through to you
I love you

I just need, yeah a moment to myself
Gaze up to the heavens, yeah and show my strength
Stars count in billions, oh the chances that I have to gain in worth
I just need, yeah a moment to myself
Chances... I need chances, I got 'em
I need chances, yeah, I got 'em

Are your ears open now, open up I've fallen and I'm down
Here I am the man who claims to wear the crown, all the answers, what a clown
I understand that now, please forgive me, my emotions keep me bound
Maybe I'll stay underground, yeah that'll make 'em proud
No, I can't now, give up and I'll never know how pure your love, white as snow
I love you I hope you know, I pick myself up now

I just need, yeah a moment to myself
Gaze up to the heavens, yeah and show my strength
Stars count in billions, oh the chances that I have to gain in worth
I just need, yeah a moment to myself
Chances... I need chances, I got 'em
I need chances, yeah, I got 'em
I got 'em now

Lady Wisdom

So lay your emotions down on the rock who resides by the dock
Needs not to find a new destination, needs not a relationship to keep his foundation
Yet he shines with every crashing wave, stays strong, stand fast, content, safe outside the cave
Centuries past, scenery flourishes, one who stands on principles, beauty nourishes
As we lift our emotions back, lady wisdom, it has been a pleasure.

Hearts meet again, but why don't they connect no
Why can't they seem to just make sense, take some time to reflect
Gun powder covers like soil that gives us life oh shed some light

Where do we find, where do we hide
How do we find time to lie to the blind
The pieces we leave behind, rot the soil
Step out of the pitch black night, show the pale skin we hide
Silent breath visible in the moon light sight, they run with fright
Condemned man night stalker, street murder

Executed by unseen
Executed by faith
Executed by everything in between
And I don't know why, we live this lie
But today I try, to answer the questions why
Who we are, what we are asking for
I will find, I will find the answers why

On earth we rest, a sun must set, through His love His Son he sent, in
faith we arise in glory met, placed in the palm of His hand this man
majestic, he shall now embrace the face of the
Father, eternity through His grace, angels gift you in song, lift your
heart, warm and soothe, for now he breathes life into art set apart for
him to start.

Night Walker

What have you seen, fire on the rock
What a perfect day that must have been, and yet they mock
What must be done, again back to square one
Brought back down on you, you and now it's your pain
Separated me from you, no longer will I stand wait in the rain
Dilute my mind with selfish song, get a hold of yourself
Never mind who I am your wrong, mastermind of my own kind, honor top shelf
Again I find you in the shadows, stop don't shed light on it, keep his eyes blind
And set it on fire

Night walker, not just a man
Night walker, run while you can
He sinks his teeth, mind and body decay
It's over I begin to fade, it's over it's over
It's what I left behind, fell to his blade
Night walker, not just a man
Night walker, run if you can, is it over?

I feel you manipulating my cells, turning me into your self image
I won't give in I can tell, I am prepared for this mandatory self scrimmage
Hey can you feel my wall, just enough testament to keep you on the other side
How does it feel to be once so high and suddenly fall, from your unholy heartless genocide
Don't waste my time no, age don't make wise
Step back fire in my eyes, burn trees in your mind
Step back fire in my eyes. Fire in my eyes! Suffocate
Step back fire in my eyes
Step back fire in my eyes

Gritting your teeth pierced my mind
Running in a scoreless foolish pride
Fill it up with empty words of selfish past
Money says, your soul had a price, rolled the dice
Muscles fail, back snaps your last chance was the last
I can't let you, back in my life

The Kiss of Sin

What I do, who do I do it for
Who do I pay, what will they say
For time and time again I wonder
Is it really worth laying it all down and to surrender
Many will ask, many will tell, hungry minds they must fill
Does it pay off in due time, or am I trapped in my endless rhyme
Hey can you tell me, hey can you make it clear, tell me can you tell me

What sin did I kiss, burned my lips
What's this sin I kiss, it burns my skin more
Tell me, hey can you tell me now
What a bliss I do miss, burned my lips
What's this bliss I miss, it burns my skin more
Tell me, hey can you tell me now

Tell me, hey can you tell me now

My heart wants more, but my soul weeps in pain
A fight with much to lose, much to gain
Fog paints the morning of, the day sight becomes reality
To please in numbers is bliss, but a true calling you might miss
So am I to wonder, or do you feel the need to speak
Make it clear to me this morning the meaning that I seek, oh

It burns, it burns me
The kiss of sin burns my skin
Where did it all begin, I must regain, be strong again
The kiss, this kiss, the kiss that burns my lips, burns my lips, oh

Living On A Free Fall

Drift backwards down the highway, let go of the world, free
No more stops, no more worries, no it's not my time to answer to my crime
As the wind cools my thoughts, I think clearly, why wait so long for this high
Tell me what could be better than to live without cost, drive undiscovered roads and can not be lost, living the only way I know how

Living on a free fall
Living on a free fall
Come back around, do it all again
Living on a free fall
Have no reflection at all, no regrets to recall
On a free fall, won't be denied
While living the life I designed

How come I am the only one, willing to bring on change
Free sailing for the meek, turn upside down the weak
Go the wrong way on a one way street
But exits try to steal my soul, sought to close off my way
No I won't sit idle, no won't listen, no won't make me stay
I can not be lost, living the only way I know how

While my eyes shut I move
Oh I'm not frightened no, have nothing to prove
I'll make the first move, warmed I'm soothed
Let go of the wheel, for the first time I feel, I feel real

What I've seen

What I've seen
The sun paints the soil, oh
What it takes, oh what it makes
It gives us time to fix our crime
What we've become

What I've seen
Can wash away, take away
Give life, make right
Bring back youth, give us might
What we've become
Only time will tell

I've seen
What I, what I hate
I've seen
What I, what I make
Take me down where I fall
Looked into my eyes, I can recall
What we have become, falls apart

I've seen
What I, what I hate
I've seen
What I, what I make
Telling you, sun burns no more for you

What I've seen
Light turn black, subsided dreams
Broken promise, won't turn back
What is killing us, what we've become

What I've seen
Awaits a loaded gun, lost like a forgotten son
What we've become, what we've become
Only time will tell, can we, can we overcome

I've seen
What I, what I hate
I've seen
What I, what I make
Take me down where I fall
Looked into my eyes, I can recall
What we have become, falls apart

I've seen
What I, what I hate
I've seen
What I, what I make
Telling you, sun burns no more for you

Inventoried justice, blinded repeats every like mind
What we've become
Born to live and die, fight eye to eye
What we've become
What I've seen, yeah what I, what I've seen
Can we overcome

Cyclone

I'm not sure who I see, who I need to be
Ghost are my dreams, makes no difference what they mean
Why don't you listen, why don't you give reasons, bearing shackles, laboring seasons
Give back the life and realize, relocate memories in stride
Awaken inside, pulled the knife from my side, and so it goes
On on...

What have I done, I've awaken the cyclone
In it, I'm alone, I'm alone
So alone, I'm alone
Unrelenting I've awaken the cyclone
What I've done lord, can't be undone

I've bitten the thorn, beaten by stone
Unrelenting I've awaken the cyclone
In it, I'm alone, I'm alone
So alone

What would I see if I could see across the ocean, but never could I
Awaken inside, montaged face fell from grace, and be struck back
Time lost the key, I'm lost within my means, weakened are the seams
Spinning reeling out of control, I've awaken the cyclone, and so it goes
On on...

What have I done, I've awaken the cyclone
In it, I'm alone, I'm alone
So alone, I'm alone
Unrelenting I've awaken the cyclone
What I've done lord, can't be undone

I've bitten the thorn, beaten by stone
Unrelenting I've awaken the cyclone
In it, I'm alone, I'm alone
So alone

I can't hold on, shepherd staff cracked in half
Bring me to my knees, send me blind out to sea
To no return, to no return
I can't breath in fate, erase your pain on my behalf
Spinning reeling out of control, I've awaken the cyclone
In it I'm alone

Bring Back The Dance

What would I do without
Would the street lights dim, would I embrace sin
A wolf free among the sheep, how can I sleep
Simple minded cross trained, I need to stop and notice
What have I done? Have I made a difference, have I built a bridge
With what can I free such pain, run the race without strain, for ever more
I...I...need such an embrace

What do you call it
What about love?

Would my candle give light, if the sun failed to give flight
Would I stop to care, so many left in fear, so many I can hear!
Many lost it all, with a simple emotion I could stop this all! Oh

What do you call it
What about love?
What do you call that
What about love?
What do you call everything
What about love?
Come on say it with me
What about love?

I may only have two arms, but a nation can embrace, whip tears from their face
But it starts with one, once one, now many more, stop the fight settle the score
Here comes a chance, don't let it fall between the cracks, bring back the dance

Would my candle give light, if the sun failed to give flight
Many lost it all, with a simple emotion I could stop this all!

I...I...need such an embrace!

What do you call it
What about love?
What do you call that
What about love?
What do you call everything
What about love?
Come on say it with me
What about love?

I...I...need such an embrace!
I...You, I, you, need oh,
What about love?
Such an embrace yeah
What about love?
Need everything
What about love?
To bring
What about love?
Love to everyone!

What do you call it
What about love?
What do you call that
What about love?
What do you call everything
What about love?
Come on say it with me
What about love?

Pristine One

So often frustrated
So often suffocated
So I guess I hide, love lost resides
For this I need advice, no matter the price
Gone, gone, a visionary masterpiece I called mine
Something tells me I'll never see again, pristine ora shine
Weight of distance ever further away buries me, and I
Fell from the one so high a top the mountain
Fell where do I go, where do I go
From here, from here!

Well I called you mine, pristine ora shine
My account of moon phases, can you read the signs
Same mind different faces, can't you read the signs
Well I called you mine, pristine ora shine
I called you mine, called you mine
So far away, about time I let go

About time I let go

So often defeated
So often resentful
Store it all, control is what makes me
Creates such madness within me
So I guess I hide, insanity resides
I tell you, I can't hear you anymore
Something in me understands, but can't comprehend
Trapped between you and me, and I
Fell from the one so high a top the mountain
Fell where do I go, where do I go
From here, from here!

Well I called you mine, pristine ora shine
My account of moon phases, can you read the signs
Same mind different faces, can't you read the signs
Well I called you mine, pristine ora shine
I called you mine, called you mine
So far away, about time I let go

About time I let go

Well I called you mine
So often I feel
You surround me
So often I feel
You so distant from me
So often, so often it hurts
Ora, ora, ora shine! Shine!
Time I let you go

Pristine ora shine
My account of moon phases, can you read the signs
Same mind different faces, can't you read the signs
Well I called you mine, pristine ora shine
I called you mine, called you mine
So far away, about time I let go

One Last Time

Your hands riddled with splinters, yet gentle hearted
But tomorrow brings on harder years
You've seen it all time and time before, the trees bare your burdens
Just after snowfall covered and they stand tall, but won't stand forever
Splinters bleed, burn in unforgiving chill, where will it end, no
You call, but on one to call friend

Won't you, won't you
Sacrifice one, last, time

Won't you, won't you
Ten thousand, ten thousand nails
Hear the sound, let it ring
One last time
Let it, let him sing, on and on
Just let it in, gotta let it in
Just let it in
Won't you, won't you just let in

Your foundation riddled with holes
Yet sought higher ground, won't admit defeat, you're too proud
Suddenly you surround the shattered pieces of spring bloom dreams and it hits
Who will remember you when your eyes go dark
Like a beacon no longer in the night sky
How many years have been lost, your heart can not pay the cost no

Won't you, won't you
Sacrifice one, last, time

Won't you, won't you
Ten thousand, ten thousand nails
Hear the sound, let it ring
One last time
Let it, let him sing, on and on
Just let it in, gotta let it in
Just let it in
Won't you, won't you just let in

Ten thousand nails struck, but fell silent
Tears stain your clothes, and have nowhere to go
Ten thousand, ten thousand nails, when will you hear the sounds
Creator of kings, hear him, hear him sing
Surround, surround you now
Let it ring oh, let it ring

Won't you, won't you
Ten thousand, ten thousand nails
Hear the sound, let it ring
One last time
Let it, let him sing, on and on
Just let it in, gotta let it in
Just let it in, gotta let it in
Just let it in...